Apart from the 1 Torchwood comm and 2 Torchwood authors who I follow by email on LJ, I had completely forgotten about LJ, and everything.
So I wondered if anyone else has Twitter, cos I keep up with that constantly, and I just had a mega flail and went "OMG I miss peeps!"
My Twit name is Galadriel1010. Word of warning, if you follow me, you will lose the Game. A lot. Because I am mean and have a very short attention span. And lots of friends who play the Game

i was going to write a super angry ranty post cause my mom & i argued last night/this morning at 5 am... but now most of the anger has like just drained from me, and i know that no matter what, i will always respect my mom even though she is insecure, sometimes a total anal bitch (f'realz), and hasn't really achieved anything that she keeps telling me i should be (eg. she doesn't have a job and we all live off my dad and stepdad)... cause underneath all that i still see a really strong woman who's gone through a lot, who's given me a lot, and raised me to the best of her abilities + more.

tbh i think i'm pretty honest with myself. i know what i'm really good at, and i'd say i'm even kinda harsh at times. like, i know my violin skillz are kinda awesumz, but i totes admit that i just didn't have the dedication to become SUPER ALLOUT AWESUMZ. and i understand how my mom would look down on me for that, but telling her how i feel would only result in her being all like "well, yeah, so that's your fault and IT WAS ALL ME PUSHING YOU~~~~" blerp. and also i know my time management skillz are non-existent and i try my best not to make excuses for my lateness (as in, i don't make up reasons for not coming to school... to my ct i'm just like "i couldn't wake up :/" and that's that). so even though i can't seem to please my mom and i can't be who she wants me to be, i'm fine with that. just... sometimes, i just wish she would be fine with that too, and not try her best to wound me with all the faults and inadequacies she sees in me.

my greatest fear of the super-distant future (like, past university and all that) is turning into my mom. ik it always sounds like a joke when people talk about turning into their parents, but if i ever get married/have kids i want to love everyone in my life and be loved the same back. so ideally i would try to raise my kids and give them what they wanted, and when they change and start coming into their own, even if the path they wanted diverged from the one i envisioned, i would accept it and continue loving them forever. yeah. sounds like such a romantic (and hence impossible) idea, but that's what i want. as in, i don't believe in eternal happiness forever and ever, i think you need grief and sorrow - variety is the spice of life http://www.livejournal.com/imgupload.bml#closeand all that. i believe in the inevitability of things and that everything dies.. but before i die i want to have at least some certainty that everyone whom i have loved has loved me back.

anyway, yeah. apart from the welt on my left hand and the bruises on the joints of the fingers of my right hand, i think i can now move on from the mega explosion from last night. and i'm starting to feel worried about my h3 lit appeal letter... i reread it and it sounded very clinical and totally dispassionate compared to claire's (practically) lyrical prose~~~ i might write a new one and beg them to let me resubmit :/ like, i really love books and poetry and words and reading and writing etc. etc. but ever since sometime last year, i became really wary of ~pretentiousness~ and i started being afraid that everything i had written so far that i thought was so awesome was actually utter bullcrap. since then i've kinda been super barren~ and empty~ and uninspired. oh well... maybe maybe.

so... i made a playlist. will upload later :) includes Defying Gravity by rachel&kurt from Glee, and i am totes addicted to it even though the original is of course more ~moving~ and epic and stuff. also, former miss south carolina teen usa learns where babies come from. hilarious stuff. there's a part2 as well hehe super funny.

i was just mulling over the lyrics of this christmas carol. and you know the line "and every mother's child is gonna spy/ to see if reindeer really know how to fly"? why did they have to use mother's child? so discriminatory. so children with single dads or gay parents no christmas la.

-from fiona's post

it made me laugh x) can you imagine the lyricists debating over whether they would offend these people hahaha. adorable.

5.09 - The Real Ghostbusters Picspam



We have guns

It's been forever since I posted anything. I re-read Metanoia because it's Sunday and therefore there is nothing to do but drink booze and smoke and do nothing. Because I wanted to paint something too I decided to do the asperger thing smash them togther. I choosed Zan because he is my favorite and mostly because he had a easy body to paint. I used watercolors and stole a pose from PoseManiacs.

You could see the sky for miles...and miles. There was no limit. The air was humid and thick like indoor pool, you know the kind at the rec-center that is always foggy and warm? I could see it coming crossed the parched grasses. A storm, something living and breathing, the rollclouds stained the Dakota sky violet and gray. I can smell the rain....

( I could feel the thunder )

1st photo-op!!


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The ability to be completely, totally and 100% dedicated; to persevere no matter what, to push myself to the limits. All I really want is the discipline to work hard.

Today I had an epiphany of sorts regarding one of the key reasons that makes me suck at acting, pfft. I have a feeling Mr Lyon may have pointed this out before and I'd just forgotten, or else he didn't and mentioned other things instead. Either way I have obviously got a long way to go. Could really use some great talent right now :|

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Today my mum said that I'm never going to get married because my standards are too high! I automatically denied it, but on further consideration I guess she's right, in a sense. It's like, I know that The One is a mythical concept created by romantic idealists, but I still (unconsciously) expect that I will walk into a room, exchange a look with somebody, and know from that moment on that he is The One.

If my criteria seriously included some sort of magical moment of ~connection~ arising from a single glance, then that kinda does qualify as being too picky, doesn't it? Especially since that's hardly how people fall in love. If I were to marry based on first impressions, I'd probably end up getting a divorce soon after.

Anyway, it's not like I epitomize High Standards myself and can therefore hold similarly high expectations of others in the first place. Ah whatever. I would still like one of those elusive Gay Boi BFFs, though ;)

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My schedule for the rest of the year is likely going to end up with my various commitments clashing - for the first time ever, I think I might need to write this stuff down instead of remembering them like I usually do. But even though I am actually somewhat busy for once, it still feels as if something is missing.

I guess that, despite whatever feel-good Facebook apps might tell me about being where I'm supposed to be, I still feel out of place.

From here on, everything's moving too quickly to let you catch your breath first.

tomorrow PW ends for good. i'm quite worrieddddd about the filming aaack

anyway read the papers today and an interview was quite funny: she told a waiter that he was boring her and she asked him to RAP!!!!

so strange :D if i ever eat there i am so doing that.

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I suspect there are a lot of mixed reactions to The Real Ghostbusters. Which, fair enough. Any of the episodes that break the fourth wall to this degree tend to inspire a mixed bag in this department. My thoughts, for what it's worth.

How times change.

I'd like to think the worst of my year is over - that is, in complete ignorance of what the rest of 2009 spent in servitude to the government will be like. I'd like to think I'll enjoy that. (In fact, I really hope I do, and I'll do all I can to make sure that happens.) And for now.. I'd like to think it's time to take things at my own pace. :)

This isn't so much a meta as it is a discussion question. I know that Supernatural reuses a lot of its extras and for the most part it isn't a problem. I am a little annoyed when people who played sizable roles (at least with a few minutes of dialogue) come back to play another character. For example:

- Christine Chatelain plays Dr. Ellen Piccolo in Ep. 5.08 and also the newly transformed Vampire!Jenny in Ep. 1.20.

- Katya Virshilas plays Chastity, the stripper, in Ep. 5.03 and also Lust!Demon from Ep. 3.01.

- Christie Laing plays the Crossroads Demon in Ep. 2.08 and also Taylor, the Co-Ed, from Ep. 1.07.


What are other peoples thoughts on this?

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001 - Traci and Alona's reaction when Traci's Mum (who they called on stage) called her "a little sh*t".
002 - Bear hug! Traci and Alona

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It feels good to be able to go out again give up on Singapore shopping and sit around talking to great friends...I really like talking to people. Gives you so much perspective and lets you vicariously experience different situations. I think you can gauge how comfortable you are with a person just by talking, like if you can get into an amazing conversation and discover new and eye opening things and even when you run out of things to talk about there's this really nice comfortable silence. One of the things I like best is a comfortable silence.

I watched Coraline with Hazel hahahahah it was soooo scary but great fun I loved it actually whoohoo there goes my $allowance. Also SnD gives me great fun :) I can't wait for my mom and little sister to bring back good instant noodles from Taiwan...although now I must work on finishing the fruits in the fridge. D:



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Just before autographs, Traci and Alona came on stage together so everyone could take pictures of them up on stage. Traci called her mom (since she spoke about possibly doing that during her panel). And her mother called her "Little Shit" various times. Most of the faces from Alona and Traci are when Traci's mother called her that. All pictures are clickable thumbnails.

( Traci and Alona )

Here are my pictures from Alona's panel. I haven't gone through them, so I am not sure how good they are. I just resized and uploaded them. Clickable thumbnails, so click for bigger versions.

( Alona )